I think I am, now, I didn't use to but I do now.
I used to hanker for a gig in a different but related area, it's almost unheard of to be able to transition from one to the other. I actually made the transition but there was a restructure 6 months later and so after 9 months I was returned to pond from whence I came.
For a few years I applied internally and externally for other gigs similar to the one I was ankled from, got very close a few times externally, internally was always a case of "another candidate was more suited for the role, we can't exactly explain how" which is code for "jobs for the boys". I can take a hint (eventually) and slowly I've been letting go.
And I know I've arrived at the point where I'm content now (job wise), because my old job has been reinstated and awarded to someone with out any chance to apply, and I don't really care. But doubling down on this is that the nek day I get an email about an external gig looking for someone in my exact position, for the exact gig I used to hanker for, and I don't care, I'm not applying.
Perhaps it's part Covid uncertainty, perhaps age , perhaps getting a cancer diagnosis, I don't care how I've arrived here (though I do refuse to live as though the cancer thing is the end). My current gig is varied and challenging, I get to mentor staff, I get to add value to the community, I have 15 staff to guide and set up for wins, and I'm told I'm good at it and I like doing it, all 10 mins from home, 5 mins from the beach. What more would I want ?
Retirement is ways off for me, but I reckon I'm happy to do this until I get there.
And I guess I'm writing this here as some sort of confirmation to myself that it's the right decision.